Monday, September 4, 2017

"No Exit" (or, Escaping Infinity)

Sometimes my dreams are incredibly metaphorical. Last night I had one of those dreams. I dreamed I was on the run from an enemy in hot pursuit. To evade them I dove into a heavily wooded ravine and fell deeper and deeper through the foliage uncertain if I would survive the fall or even be able to get back out of the ravine once I hit bottom.

I "landed" inside a brightly, lit rectangular room with walls, floor, and ceiling made of perfect mirrors. And I mean perfect! The reflections were so clear that they did not look like reflections at all, and of course they reflected each other "infinitely" in all directions.

I could move, or rather, "fly", in any direction, but when I reached a mirror, instead of being obstructed, I could pass right through (and hence into my own reflection) and come out into another "room" that appeared exactly as the room I had just left.

I immediately realized I was "trapped" (but did not realize the metaphor of being "trapped in infinity" until after I woke up and thought about what just happened). So I started trying to find a way out. I reasoned that if I could find any sort of flaw in the reflection then that would be my way out (because a flaw would by necessity have to take me someplace "else"). So I began closely examining the corner looking for any imperfections where the mirrors edges met.

I found some "glitches" in the mirror around the edges, and I was in the process of trying to figure out how to use the "glitches" (distortions) to effect my escape when I woke up. I realized right away what a metaphor the mirror room was for life itself, and am now wondering if maybe there are "glitches" in reality (around the "edges" where "mirrors" meet) that could be used somehow to "escape from infinity", which as I understand would mean becoming "enlightened"" (in the Eastern sense). In other words, must I some how seek the "edges of the mirrors" in life? And if so, what does that mean?
[J.D. August 10, 2017]


P.S. I often think of other people as "mirrors" that reflect our own image (especially the ones we like least). So I'm wondering if maybe this dream is an unconscious attempt to help myself find an "exit" (existentially) by looking around the "edges" of my relationship with other people. Definitely something for me to think about!