I just woke up from a nap, laying on my right side facing the wall, and I saw very clearly a small light colored spider crawling on the wall. My first thought was, „That explains the itchy bite mark that I found on my thigh the other day.” My second thought was more of an impulse than a thought, and it was to capture it as a pet (I have gotten in the habit of capturing the bugs I find in my cell to watch them for awhile to see if I can tell what they eat. I even caught some larvae that floated up out of the sink drain in my cell recently and kept them for two weeks until they changed into flies before I let them go). But just as I thought about capturing the spider it melded into the wall!
Now I'm totally freaked out. This exact same thing happened to me once before as I woke from a nap in IMSI (Idaho Maximum Security Institution) about three years ago. I was also laying on my right side facing the wall, but the „spider” was a little bigger that time (about one and a half inches, this time it was only one inch) and I remember it had flattened legs like ribbons instead of rounded like a normal spider. This time the legs seemed more normal (rounded), but they were spread out more evenly around the body whereas last time the legs stuck out more concentrated to each side. In both cases the „spider” was light colored (same color as the wall) and in both cases the spider vanished into the wall right before my eyes. Last time I thought maybe it had dropped off the wall when I blinked (even though I did not remember blinking). This time I know I did not blink, it simply vanished less than eighteen inches in front of my face.
I stared at the wall for a moment hoping it would reappear, or at least for the wall to change subtly when I woke up and saw the „real” wall. But the wall did not change at all, every crack bump and detail that I had just seconds ago seen the apparition crawling across remained the same, and now I was very much wide awake!
Maybe the psych doctors whom I have contested for the last several years are right. Maybe there is something wrong with my brain. This could certainly be classified as a hallucination (last time this happened I dismissed it as a very odd dream, but this time that won't be so easy). Or maybe, just maybe, I saw something I wasn't supposed to see!
